We left the house feeling happy and I reminded myself over and over to just relax and enjoy the moment. Sophia loves to shop and she wants me to experience it with her. How awesome is that? The first hour went well and I think we were all enjoying ourselves. I don't know what happened after that first hour but something snapped in me and I just couldn't handle being in the mall any longer. Maybe it was the bright lights or maybe it was the loud music that changed from store to store, or maybe it was that after an hour it seemed like we were walking in circles not sure where to go next. It could have even been the constant badgering by the kiosk workers to buy their products. (Alexander said, "Mom, think of them as bums in Chicago. Just look straight ahead and keep walking.") Anyhow, I felt completely worn out and claustrophobic. I hate these moments because all I want to do is get out of the mall. It doesn't help to remind myself to calm down and enjoy the moment because my need to escape becomes stronger than any other need. I am no longer any help to Sophia and she really wanted my input.
Why, oh why, can't I be a woman that loves shopping or at least a woman that can tolerate more than an hour at the mall? I want to enjoy these moments with my daughter and not turn it into a situation about myself. I say this knowing I have to return to the mall one more time this week. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
Please let it go quickly!
The feeling you describe reminds me of how it feels when the chemical toxins overwhelm me in the mall. You can not get out of there fast enough.
ReplyDeleteOh i'm so with you. I like browsing in shops, especially when im on holiday and it's small interesting shops and there aren't many people around. But when it comes to busy shopping centres at the weekend.. i feel like being sick! Not all women are natural shoppers :)
ReplyDeleteDon't worry Cathy, I fail at shopping too.
ReplyDeleteI did my Christmas shopping online.
The only shopping that I like, sometimes, is going to the smaller shops around town that are locally owned. That is fun, but even that I can't take much of it.
I definitely have my "failing as a woman" areas too! I usually don't like shopping, and I'm not the least bit interested in shoes, except to stay out of ones that hurt me. Most of the time I don't wear makeup either. I think I'm missing some female genetic sequences!
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